i thought my happiness ends here.I'm glad we both decided to hold on

"LOVE is something I always want to treasure.

LOVING HIM, is what I want to do forever..

It is like a drug for me, keeping me alive..

PLEASE... don't take my drug away.."

We had a fight, a little fight just like two kids fighting over a little toy.

He took it seriously, it was a big deal.

I didn't mind it at all.....

We misunderstood each other..

We don't want to accept our mistakes, PRIDE was playing his tricks.

Until, he wanted to lay low..COOL OFF.. and asks me to come back after everything is okay.He was serious.

He gave me a stupid reason....

A reason which I have proved to be wrong... I opposed to him..

I said, "COOL OFF =BREAK UP, I'm not coming back...(i'm serious)"

He can't accept that...

I acted as her ex girlfriend while we were sending messages to each other.

He called me "baby", I said to him, "My name is jenessa, I'm not a baby.. wala man baby dri, puro na me dalaga"

He asked for forgiveness..I just can't forgive him yet..It was not easy for me..

I acted like I BAD GIRL, who doesn't care to anyone at all.

I showed him, he was nothing..(though he was everything).

He called, I don't want to answer him..

He begged for me to answer his calls..He said he didn't mean it, he can't live without me..

I answered him, he was crying..

I ignored everything he said. PRIDE..

He called again, so I listened...

I thought it ends there...

MY HAPPINESS..

MY LOVE..

MY LIFE...

Everything gone.....in an instant...

Let's hold on... we both decided to hold on..

It was a relief......

We renewed our promises , like renewing wedding vows...

It was still a happy ending for both of us..

And, we both learned our lessons..

He said he won't do this again, he's afraid of losing me..Just like me to him.

We are back to normal now, as if nothing happened....

(emo kaayo ko dri..well, just want to express my feelings.. I got to stop here, STUDY MODE na naman)

My EX said-"I still love you".....after three long years

I had been receiving text messages from an unknown user this past few weeks.... I didn't mind it, since I don't like sending replies to anonymous texters.
"HI!!"
"HI..musta nka?"
"hi!! reply pud oi.."

Those were some of his first messages ....Hmmmm.. His a little kulit, but I didn't mind him at all...I don't know him, and I thought he doesn't know me......

The unknown texter would send me messages twice a day or even more..But, since my inbox can store up to 40 messages, I deleted all of his messages.

This situation continued for weeks.....
I kept this as a secret to my boyfriend, because I know he would react like this----->" Gae ko number ana beh kay ako na awayon.."

While I was receiving messages from this unknown person, I also received a friend request for my Friendster profile..I rejected him, since I don't know him, and he doesn't have a picture.....His name was "dota" (it doesn't ring a bell since there's so many DOTA addicts). Then, a few days later, he sent me another friend request so I decided to send him into my "BLOCKED USERS LIST".

Yesterday night, February 28, the unknown texter woke me up at around 11pm, I read one of his messages(only "HI!") , I turned my phone into silent mode,then decided to sleep because my eyes were too heavy......

The next morning, I continued reading his messages.......

These are some of his messages:
"Hi.....musta?" ( 4 messages)
"Tulog na ka?" (more than 5)
"text pud oi..... others na keu ka dah.."(3 or 4?i think)

then, this message caught my attention....
" jen, reply pud beh....."

He knows my name........??????

hmmmm.. since he knows me, I decided to send him a reply later if "naa koy load".....
But, my cellphone doesn't have a load, my reply for him has to be delayed..

He was so impatient, so he sent another message to me...
"jen, si n**** ni.... I got ur number from adela.. musta na man ka?? g-rejct mn nimo ako request sa fs"

(i didn't put his name, it's better to keep it secret)

"oh no!!!", i said to myself...."shit, ex na ko..."

So it was him all this time.....I never thought he would try to contact me after our break up three years ago. Our love story ended like a tragedy, and I thought he has moved on....

"jen..... I still love u"(another text message)

inner me: "Boang ka sa inyo??? dugay na nato nagbuwag, karon ra ka makigbalik.....Imo ko gibuwagan kay naa kay lain babay, then hilas keu ka mosulti ug i love you.. boang ka man diay.."

We broke up because he was in love to another girl...And, I was not serious at that time....But, we departed to each other with hatred in our heart.... He, couldn't accept the fact that I was just playing a game called love, and..... Me..? I can't handle the truth the he chose that bitch and left me..

I replied to him(through Chikka):
"hmmm... wla na koy labot anang imo na-feel for me.. dugay ra ta nagbuwag. hapi na keu ko karon, musta na man d i mo ni katri*** ug ni regi**? sila nlng ang baliki"

Time passed, I have moved on, and is now having a happy and serious relationship....I wish my ex to move on and have a happy relationship, but I guess he's not yet ready..... The next message would support this idea:

"Kabaw ko hapi na ka nya, pero, i was hoping na bsag gamay lng, naa pa kay feelings para nako... si katr***( the bitch), wala ra to nako, dako au nga sayop xa ako gipili.. si reg**** dugay ra man me wala, binuang ra man to....para pawala sa sakit."

my reply:
"ayaw nlng n****, friends ra ta kutob, if d nimo kaya dawaton, ayaw nlng... gkalimtan nmn to nako tanan,n nk-mov on nah.hop ikaw pud..hmm.. ayaw na ni i-open kani nga topic, kay d ko gnhan.."

he said:
"cge, sori..hapi njd d i ka..sayang, dili ako ang nk-pahapi nimo..."
(eeewwww..ka-oa nimo oi.. kalami jud nimo tuk-on)

I said:
"ayaw nlng tx nko ha, kay masuko ako uyab..."

After that, he stopped sending me messages....My boyfriend is blind about this, so please DON'T TELL HIM... I'll talk to him about this in person when the time is right....

I still can't believe my ex said he still love me after three long years.....
(ang taas ng hair ko!!!)

Owww...no!! EXPLOSION!!!!

Yesterday, February 25, at around 5 pm...

I was listening to my Logic instructor, Mr.B. I. Garcia and he was a little boring
(He wouldn't tell us his real name, just the initials,.... we think his name is really 'baduy', so we sometimes call him Mr. "Bad influence" Garcia...heheheh or Bonifacio Itacio Garcia.....).
Anyway, the whole class was quite while listening to his lecture about Eduction ( obversion, conversion etc...)
Me and Karlo(my seatmate) were having little chats about the topic and about our classmates (for the sake of keeping ourselves awake while having a boring class).
Mr. B. I. started giving questions to the class... He was standing in front of the whole class for a moment then decided to sit... then..

He slipped.....

His hands accidentally touched something under the table, after that, a large sound was heard.......

"BOOM!!!"

Mr. BI looked at it first.... Me and some students sitted at the back doesn't have any idea where that loud sound came..

Then,
"sssssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...."
Mr. BI ran slowly away from the table....

Our classmates in front were shouting......."AHHHHHH!!!!!"


Mr. BI paused, then ran slowly away from the table...

Some hurried to get out of the room...
some at the back were shouting...
"Hala bomba!!!" (bomb??how??)
"Mo-boto na!!!"(what???)

I was covering my ears while watching my classmates getting wild, hoping to gain a clue on what's really happening.....
Then, there was a smoke coming out from the table...
(does a bomb produce smoke??)
It smells awful.....
I was about to leave the room, just like the others, when one of our classmates who took a close look of that thing underneath the table, said.

"Fire extinguisher ra to oi....sir..wala jud nagsaba!!!!"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAA"""

Everyone looked stupid...

Mr. B I is the no.1 IMBA (imbalance) teacher ever.......

This is one of the funniest class ever!!!




(i wonder how that happened, the seal of a fire extinguisher should be tight or someone might have loosen it on purpose??????....)

VALENTINES.. supahhh!!!

I know most people would picture out Valentines Day as a day with the ones they love...... Well, it's obvious..(hahaha!!! how stupid!!).... But, I guess the best Hearts Day would be spending it with family, friends and your special someone (of course!!!)..

February 14, Valentines Day, and at the same time it was the Don Andres Soriano National High School Alumni Homecoming 2009...

My high school friends decided to have our little reunion, and at the same time spend V-day with the whole gang...

Of course, Valentines won't be complete if my boyfriend's not around, so while I'm enjoying my friends company, me and my boyfriend had a wonderful date..

With my friends, I'm a complete party girl, who just loves to dance, laugh, and have fun..

At first, my BF couldn't understand.....So, he got angry seeing me dancing at the dance floor and having fun with friends..HE BECAME JEALOUS and OUT OF PLACE.... Well, i really did my best to make him comfortable, but he just CAN'T DANCE WITH OUR RHYTHM.!!!
So, he left the dance floor, and took a seat... I knew he was angry, but I decided to leave him alone for awhile so that the disaster would be less....

Then, my friends decided that we take our seats because the main event for the night is about to start...

I talked to him, asked him if he's angry..At first, he denied.. I told him that Icould feel his anger, then he said, "KABAW MAN DI AY KA NA NASUKO KO, MANGUTANA PA JUD KA. GANIHA RA KO NAGHUWAT NIMO, IMO RA JUD KO GIPABAY-AN DRI..."
(" huhu..!! He is angry, I knew it..!!! why did I bother asking him......??!!! stupid!!!).

We argued on each other, while keeping our voices low, so that my friends who were just sitting beside us won't notice us fighting..

I really got pissed hearing him say, "MALIPAY RA MAN DI AY KA NA WALA KO..... MAS NALINGAW KA NILA..."

I got angry, very angry.... I really want to throw my cellular phone, but I didn't..( it would be waste..)
He saw my face, and he didn't like the face I was wearing...I think he became afraid because he doesn't want me to be angry ( coz it would be really hard for him.....), so he said,
"SORRY BABY... NAGLISUD LANG JUD KO, DI KO KASABAY NINYO....!! KALIMTI NALANG TO PLEASE!!"
I replied, " EWAN!!"..

But, after a long talk, we were back to normal, as if nothing happened....

Back to the happy part....!!!!

My friends decided to drink, I asked my BF if it's okey... He said it's okey, as long as he's with me..

We had glasses ofalcohol...... I became a little dizzy, the alcohol took over a part of my brain....!!! The gang went back to the dance floor and had fun... I was surprised with my BF, he danced with us....( i know he was doing it for me..!!!)

Then, we had more glasses..... then, decided to go home...

I was a little drunk I guess, because my head was so heavy.... Good thing I could still remember!!!

My BF just laughed at me, seeing me drunk....!!!!

I had a good night sleep......!!

The next day, my BF was still laughing at me.....!!

Thanks to all the people who loves me.....!!!

Thanks to all my dates last Valentines!!!!

I won't study again.. ever..

I really feel stupid and played by my teachers today, I blame this to Friday the 13th and Valentines Day....

Last night, (February 12), I worked my ass off studying my lessons for ENGINEERING MECHANICS ( it is a hard class for me!) so that my brain will be fully equipped with all the knowledge I need for a test the next day.. I studied until 3 am, solving problems....

"centroids???, SHIT!! What's the formula for that again??"

"Find the differential area..... OH NO!!!!!! What's the derivative of this....?"

I felt my brain's gonna explode....

And then there's one subject I still have to study..... my DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS...

All the formulas are mixed up.. I don't know when and where to use them... I don't know what should be the right formula to use.... They are all numbers.....

I want to cry.. Lord help me!!

In the end, I felt that I didn't learn anything... So, instead of sitting and staring at my book, I decided to sleep at 3 am.

I woke up, just 5 hours later to study again.. My eyes were still heavy...

" I need to get a high grade....", i was pushing myself.

I placed all my attentions to the book I'm holding..

Later, I went to the university...

"Jhen", my friend Therese, "ready na ka for the test? pa-copy..please"

I said " Hmmm.. NO, dili ko ready.. I think wala ko'y answer today"

Me and all of my classmates waited inside the room, it was already 11:00 but our teacher is still missing..

"Stupid......She's not coming..", I said." All my efforts are useless...."

I went home and had a nap...

At 4:30, I went to school again to attend my class...

Our teacher was there.....( good!!), but he just gave us an assignment and left...(too bad....)

The next class was at 5:30pm, I studied for a while coz we might have a test... Me and some of my classmates waited.... again, in vain...

"She's not coming", my classmate said." All teachers are heading to the South Campus to watch the Valentine Variety Show.."

"GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!" , that pissed me off," They should have told us ahead of time...... I wasted my money, time and energy for nothing.... Mahal baya kaayo plete, wala na koy kwarta..."

" Dili na jud ko magtuon, na-badshot na ko."

" I won't study again, ever..."

( or just for now......)

Who am i?

Who am i?

Well, nothing is so special about me..... I'm just... ME.

I'd rather be at home, sit in front of my PC and browse the internet for hours.

Or, I'll be locking myself inside my room, and study my lectures.

Maybe, you'll see me sleeping most of the time..

Or, watchmovies all day long...

Talking with friends....

Well, I guess that's who I am...

I am JHENZ..... 90% human.... 10 % alien???

I am ME....