I won't study again.. ever..

I really feel stupid and played by my teachers today, I blame this to Friday the 13th and Valentines Day....

Last night, (February 12), I worked my ass off studying my lessons for ENGINEERING MECHANICS ( it is a hard class for me!) so that my brain will be fully equipped with all the knowledge I need for a test the next day.. I studied until 3 am, solving problems....

"centroids???, SHIT!! What's the formula for that again??"

"Find the differential area..... OH NO!!!!!! What's the derivative of this....?"

I felt my brain's gonna explode....

And then there's one subject I still have to study..... my DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS...

All the formulas are mixed up.. I don't know when and where to use them... I don't know what should be the right formula to use.... They are all numbers.....

I want to cry.. Lord help me!!

In the end, I felt that I didn't learn anything... So, instead of sitting and staring at my book, I decided to sleep at 3 am.

I woke up, just 5 hours later to study again.. My eyes were still heavy...

" I need to get a high grade....", i was pushing myself.

I placed all my attentions to the book I'm holding..

Later, I went to the university...

"Jhen", my friend Therese, "ready na ka for the test? pa-copy..please"

I said " Hmmm.. NO, dili ko ready.. I think wala ko'y answer today"

Me and all of my classmates waited inside the room, it was already 11:00 but our teacher is still missing..

"Stupid......She's not coming..", I said." All my efforts are useless...."

I went home and had a nap...

At 4:30, I went to school again to attend my class...

Our teacher was there.....( good!!), but he just gave us an assignment and left...(too bad....)

The next class was at 5:30pm, I studied for a while coz we might have a test... Me and some of my classmates waited.... again, in vain...

"She's not coming", my classmate said." All teachers are heading to the South Campus to watch the Valentine Variety Show.."

"GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!" , that pissed me off," They should have told us ahead of time...... I wasted my money, time and energy for nothing.... Mahal baya kaayo plete, wala na koy kwarta..."

" Dili na jud ko magtuon, na-badshot na ko."

" I won't study again, ever..."

( or just for now......)